My Life, Your Entertainment.

Updating throughout the day

Breakfast:

• 8oz water.
• Cheese cubes and grapes

After Class snack:

• Chocolate Chip Clif Bar 

This shower is about to feel so nice right now.

I can’t stop missing you.

The cloudiness interfered with my gps and didn’t start tracking until a mile in so that’s where i thickened the line. I always start from home and then end at home so the marker near Colin Powell is there because of that glitch. Sigh.

4.04 miles though, in 38 minutes. :3

It was freezing cold. 30 degrees but weather.com said that it felt like 20… which I completely understand.

Even my coldgear Underarmour failed me.

I had to stop running a few times because my pants were falling down/the stoplights never let me cross -.-

I will improve the time, that I can guarantee.

I usually run the same path, so it’s easy to try and improve my time.

Now, for a warm warm shower and my heated mattress.

Or, 1.82 miles.
I ran/jogged it in 15 minutes, which isn’t bad considering that my old mile time in like 9th grade was like … 12 minutes. Partially because I hated running in circles, and partly due to the fact that I was out of shape.

I never was able to run a mile straight, and now I can run more.
I only had 20 minutes total to run, so I literally ran all around Faircrest.

I’m going to try and accomplish 3 miles total tomorrow. Hope I have enough time :3

This new app on my android tracks my progress/speed/distance and then imports it onto google maps for me !
The little thumbtacks are there because I was testing the features…accidentally LOL 

quite-quiet:

• i ate waaay too much yesterday.
• i dont HAVE to eat. no one is making me.
• i see my crush in less than a week. and he hates fat people.
• i am strong enough.
• i want to be thin.
• i dont deserve to eat.
• i will feel better if i dont eat.
• i will feel disgusting if i eat.
• i dont need it.
• i dont need.
• i have 75 ounces of water.
• food is bad.
• i dont want to disappoint.
• i can do it.

WHY I WILL EAT FOR THE REST OF TODAY… AND THE REST OF MY LIFE.

• Without food, I won’t have the energy to get through my day. I have too much to get through without having to worry about my stomach growling.
• I don’t want my level of intelligence to be compared to my body’s level of intelligence. My body knows when it needs food; so shouldn’t I?
• I’d rather be thought of as being “strong” by exercising.
• I hold myself to a high enough standard. There is no such thing as not deserving to eat. Of course, that doesn’t mean I’ll devour everything in sight though.
• If my crush doesn’t like me for who I am, then frankly they aren’t worth it. “Crushes” go away after a while. Crushes < True Love.
• I’d rather eat healthier, than to deprive myself of food and end up binge-eating anyways. Low calorie meals ARE an option.
• Exercise increases a person’s level of endorphins. Endorphins chemically stimulate the “reward pathways” in your body. Thus giving you a feeling of pleasure. So, exercise WILL make you feel better.

I hate seeing ‘thinspo’ on my dash, the whole concept of it just makes me sad. The people who believe in ‘thinspo’ need to understand that it’s not worth damaging your body for just a few years of ‘good looks’. By the time you’re 30+ no one really cares whether or not you have a 25 inch waist. It’s normal to not have one at that age. Just because someone is thin, doesn’t mean that they’re healthy.

If you’re looking to lose weight, I suggest ‘fitspo’, not ‘thinspo’.